The journey so far...

“Your work is going to fill a large part of your life,

and the only way to be truly satisfied is to

do what you believe is great work.

And the only way to do great work is to love what you do.” 

- Steve Jobs

The time passes so quickly, I realised I just hit my first anniversary working full time in church a month ago. I never worked in a company more than a year because in the past, I had to study and work part time at the same time. 

One small step

Being a control freak who likes to take control of everything, I always want to know what's next, I need to be well prepared in order for me to be efficient, I enjoy plan things ahead, and I hate uncertainty. Which is why I hardly do things without planning, but this time I decided to go for a random roadtrip with my friends, I can't help but started planning everything. I started searching online for our accommodation, and the whole itinerary etc. Being in control makes me feel safe, I guess it shows how insecure I am. I know that and I am still fighting this, everyday.

City Light Penang

A work trip to Penang this time with pastor, one of my mission was to conduct a workshop on Media/Design at City Light Church, Penang.  Throughout these 3days 4 nights, I seen a different perspective on ministering to others, I realise there is a bridge I can build something to help people realize how important they are serving in media ministry, I see a bigger picture of how God is using me, all those endurance and perseverance to be who I am today (yet I am still learning to be better), God is already using me for the next generation. 

Colour Conference 2016

Back to my favourite place Sydney! This time I came for Colour Conference 2016, is a women's conference organised by Hillsong Church. I went without much expectation, and I came back with so much inspiration!

Looking Forward to 2016

Happy New Year Eve! My heart is filled with so much gratitude and hope today, that so much goodness that God this year that not because I have the most perfect year, but because I grew closer to Him, knowing Him even better.

Your Hands

Whatever your hands find to do,

do it with all your might.

Ecclesiastes 9:10

Christmas Time

Merry Christmas!

First Christmas dinner with my cell group family! I am doing decor for the party, I just love love love doing decor for parties/events. I placed some ornaments and little note on the table for each seating to create a hint of Christmas ambience. 

Papa How & Mama How Photoshoot

Today, I had the honour to be their photographer to photograph their maternity shoot. This is my first time shooting for couple and it is also to welcome the arrival of Princess How :) Being their close friend/cg member for almost two years, I have known them more and deeper, they know me so much more than I know about myself. They are always there for me, and I can never say enough of thank you of being patient with me when I was depressed, emotional, naughty, rebellious, and all you can name it. I would say, they are my most favourite couple not because they are the most perfect one, but because they are the most real couple I ever met, someone that I would look up to be when I have a partner in the future. 

Here it is, day one shooting at Empire Damansara, loving this place :) Thank God for beautiful sunny weather (no rain), and no one disturb us during the whole shooting too! We also had good chat (mostly me whining) over tea time at FRANCO :')

To my mama of C11/big sista/ji mui, you are still beautiful inside out as pregger! hehe!

New every morning.

November 9. I suddenly remembered two years ago of today, I was baptised. Out of boredom, I looked back these pictures, the day I was baptised, it got me thinking about my journey so far, following Jesus. I don't have the best testimony to share about His goodness over my life, but I do have stories of how I have encountered Jesus during tough times. 

And This Stone

Sorry for being missing for months. Here, I want to share more about my life as a full time staff in church, there are so much more than just being a Christian who I used to be, after 7 years attending church regularly, growing up and knowing more about serving until I get down my knee to receive this call. 

In the past two months, I was being a part of Arise and Build, it is our 10th year doing this, to raise building fund so that we can expand the kingdom of God. I see a bigger picture, I see what's behind the scene of arise and build. The preparation took one month, it wasn't just about giving your money to build God's house. What's beyond is the stories that built over the journey...

Closure

Two years ago, I had a revelation from God that I am called to a new place, a bible school called Lionsgate in the United States of America. I was scared but I went full on despite of all the challenges. 

I spent one year to prepare myself, no, I was never ready for it. I try the best I could, to leave everything behind. I went through emotional roller coaster during last year, went through the rejection and trauma experience in U.S. Embassy, the crazy amount that I need to save for my living cost in U.S. and the fear was eating me up every night. 

Out of sudden, Pastor Troy from Lionsgate decided to postpone the intake, it was exactly one year ago. I was waiting, confuse, wonder "Am I forgotten?" I hear no news, or coming intake, I see no direction, what's next?

Three months ago, I got a call from my pastor here, I was invited to join the staff team as a graphic designer. I said yes, and I have never felt so fulfilling than ever despite all the sleepless nights, but that joy is to know that you are serving God. But deep down, I was still waiting and hoping for an answer from God. What happened to the dream that you have put inside my heart? What happened to the call to go Lionsgate? Am I doing the right thing right now? Am I doing His will?

Today, I finally got it. Through Pastor Troy, God said to me "It is done." No, I'm not done yet, but Lionsgate was not the ultimate destination for me, it was part of the journey that I had to bypass to get where I am right now. In all my life since I came to know Jesus, I was full on for Him, I wanted to lay down my life, do His work in all the days of my life, a full time ministry servant of God. I wanted to change the world, I wanted to spread His love and amazing gospel with everyone. I wanted to use media to touch lives. I wanted, I stop wanting because of the past hurt and disappointment. I stop stepping out. I stop leading. I stop being the person He wants me to be. I play safe, a Christian who still love God will all her heart and soul, who still serve God week in week out, who still pray and love others. But God said "This is not enough for me."

I can do more than that. I know I can, but I was in denial that I have better plan ahead for me. A better plan will not happen if I stay here in Malaysia, I am so wrong. 

Today is a day of closure. I have never felt something like today, something is dying inside of me yet I still see a new hope and dream. The dream has died. Because God is bringing me to a new place, a new dream, a new mission. 

Through the Lord's mercies we are not consumed, because His compassions fail not. They are new every morning; Great is Your faithfulness. (Lamentations 3:22-23)

PRESENCE X SYDNEY

The purpose of my whole trip in Sydney is to attend Presence Conference by C3 Church. One of the most anticipating speaker I have always been dreaming to hear from is Pastor Steven Furtick. 

BONDI X SYDNEY

Another Sydney attraction that you can't missed out is Bondi Beach. We went for the golden sand and blue ocean! People like me cannot swim, but I enjoy everything about it except get into the water. On the first day we went to Bondi was after Hillsong service, but the weather was so cold and windy. 

MARKETS X SYDNEY

How can you missed Sydney Fish Market when you are in Sydney right? First, aim the oysters baby! I don't know how to describe the taste of fresh oysters, it feels like you have tasted the ocean :')

HILLSONG X SYDNEY

So, one of my bucket list is to attend Hillsong Church in Sydney. Hillsong is the pioneered contemporary church in Australia since 1983, I mean, most of us growing up listening to their song, they brought worship music to a whole new level. I decided to visit their first campus at the Hills Campus, travelling there was a challenge to us as the journey took about 45 minutes from the place we stayed. 

It is located at 1 - 5 Solent Circuit Baulkham Hills NSW 2153. You can take public transport there but it will takes more than one hour. Then, we decided to rent a car and drove to Baulkham Hills, pretty exciting journey as we just solely depended on Google Map.

Before our arrival, I have contacted their concierge team in advanced so that we could have someone to host us. Considering as first time visiting Hillsong, I am so impressed by their hospitality team. Not only they replied my email and they also remember me, and reserved seat for us too. Also, every new friends get a cup of free coffee! They have a cafe bar at the new friend lounge and I forgot to take photo :'(

When service started, I felt so surreal that I am sitting right here attending their main service at their first campus. 

So blessed. 

AIRBNB X SYDNEY

So, I just came back from Sydney trip for Presence Conference 2015. This time, I decided to try Airbnb for the first time as I don't want to spend too much on hotel, but I also don't want to stay in a backpackers. 

Airbnb is a trusted community marketplace for people to list, discover, and book unique accommodations around the world. Whether an apartment for a night, a castle for a week, or a villa for a month. 

Airbnb website is really user-friendly to browse, we can pick any location, the period of your stay, number of guest, and you even set your budget. When I was searching for a place to accomodate at least 6 people and not more than RM100 a night, I found one apartment located in Cammeray, Sydney NSW. 

I contacted the host to know more about the apartment, the location wise, and the distance to travel to city. James is our host, and he is so friendly to answer every questions, he is actively communicating during our pre-arrival. 

We booked the place immediately and here we are, checked in! And check out this place! The place looks exactly like the photos on Airbnb, everything is just so beautiful. I like how our host put so much effort and detail to decorate the whole place, so cozy and lovely! We have Netflix to watch, which the guys were obsessed with it. 

Classic Scramble Eggs with Toasted Croissant & Sautéed Mushroom

There are two things I love about having a breakfast; eggs and mushroom. Breakfast is the first meal of your day, and having a good breakfast make your day, they kick start your day like a winner!

Why you shouldn't feel bad about being single?

"Why are you still single?" 

"Don't be so picky!"

"XXX not bad right? Ever consider him?"

For all the singles, do you ever felt like answering them "Why don't you mind your own business?" But deep down you asked yourself the same question too, probably more than you should.

8 Things in 2014 That I Am Thankful For

Happy New Year! I know is a bit late to wish everyone, but I just accepted the fact that 2015 is here,  it is really here! As much as I want to stay in denial, but I want to move on and live a fruitful life this year. I was depressed when the new calendar is now showing 1st of January 2015, I don't even bother to reply "Happy New Year" wishes on my phone, ridiculously sounded, I was that bitter about everything because I feel like I have wasted my entire year in 2014 because of the one calling I wanted to focus, but end up everything couldn't make it through. I am so disappointed at myself for so many things I have done or have't not done in 2014. I want to make it up to the things that I was sorry for, forget about new year resolution of 'changing to be a better person'. I think the one thing we need to always remind ourselves is to stay grateful. 

That's why I decided to pen down the things that I am thankful for in 2014 in order to welcome 2015. 

1. A Second Family - C11

Though I have joined this beautiful family only one year, but I feel I have known them long enough, we are bonded not just friends, but like a family, which means sometimes we don't just share happiness but sadness too. I am so looking forward to more journey with them :)

2. Paradise in Krabi

Meeting Rachel

I have been following Rachel Khoo TV Show "Little Paris Kitchen" and I love her! She is down to earth, humble and beautiful in every way! I am inspired by her humble beginning as startup chef in a tiny apartment in Paris, having a private kitchen and cooked for people despite she doesn't has a fancy restaurant. Finally, I get to meet her in person at Paradigm Mall, she is so bubbly in person!