why so difficult?

Am i not being 'normal' enough?
why is so difficult for us to talk?
when i saw you, i tried to smile but i cant feel your eye contact at all.
i'm not doing anything wrong to be treated like this.
why cant we just talk and work things out?
can you try to do something for the sake of 'everything'?
I do not know how to talk to you like usually until you say you gonna do something, until you say you are ready.
from the moment you said you're not ready to see me, i know it takes time.
but please we gonna start to try, start to do something.
or else things are gonna get worse.
if you feel so uncomfortable with me, what else can i do??
Get lost myself?
Is this what you really want? If yes, then i can do this.